A Grieving Experience

Overall this book was a very good reading experience in which I was glad to see what was on C. S. Lewis’ mind when he was going through this grieving process. I find it interesting that he would make comments about God and faith in God, but yet some of His very works (even in this book) he would contradict it defending God. I had a cousin that died from cancer in 2006 and this is one of the situations God used to bring me to Him…but compared to what Lewis writes, I cannot say I grieved like he did. I maybe felt a little of what he felt. But what we see here is that when someone is hurting, weak, etc. we become so easily tempted to point fingers at God. And this is a famous Christian author were talking about… imagine someone who already is a skeptic… in situations like that is when people easily become atheist. After reading A Grief Observed, it really made me think about all those out there who really don’t believe in God because of something that has happened to them (or a loved one) because if as a Christian C. S. Lewis pointed the finger at God… then how much more someone who is a skeptic. The pain that he went through can not be much different from what many others feel in this world when there spouse dies, but what makes it worst I think is that not that he is not a Christian but that he is. Throughout the journal you can just feel his words of hurt like he has been betrayed by God and this shows that when we are closer to God is when we are most likely to feel this way because we feel that he must take care of everything in our life in a way that we don’t hurt.
When I grieved over my cousin I didn’t hate God but I did however ask why? It was weird because in a way God opened my eyes through her death… during the grieving period I would read (I never did) , but it just felt comfortable and throughout that time I read bible a lot. I didn’t get saved unstill almost a year later, but it still impacted my life greatly. I wish he kept a journal after his grieving… I wonder what that would have said?